I’m truly sorry about the way I was behaving lately. I had so much doubt in everything. You have always been the constant in my life, and I know I have said that before, but its the truth. I always saw myself as the least in the relationship we had. I always made bad decisions. You have always been my compass and gravity.
Looking back on the memory we shared, For a moment all the world was right. How could I have known that you’d ever say goodbye
The past few years have just been so hard on both of us. I know, I didn’t make it any easier. I just didn’t know how to react to anything between us. I know, I became overbearing with jealousy and distrust. I had really hard time processing it. I’ve never felt this way in my entire life, and I just can’t control it.
And now I’m glad I didn’t know the way it all would end, I could’ve missed the pain and I could’ve not learnt this lesson. Holding you I held everything, if I knew I might have changed it all and probably could’ve messed it way too bad.
But hey, I want us back! I want our family back! I want to enjoy the rest of my life with you and only you! I don’t want to lose the best friend that I have ever had or lose the only love I ever had. Before you came into my life, I was on a one way ticket to no where. Sure, things may have worked out fine for me but I would always have known that something was missing.
My emotions tend to overwhelm me. I know you deserve to be treated with respect, love and care. I want you to know that I truly do respect, love and care for you and I’m hoping that with this you will forgive my conduct and realize how much you mean to me. I love you.