It broke my heart when I opened a letter that you left.
you said ” I’m leaving town and never returning”.
That you were going to try to find a new life without me,
and moving away was the best way to find the happiness,
that you always longed for.
That your life with me was like being in a prison with maximum security,
that I was selfish and kept you to fulfill my needs and neglect yours.
I made everything for you and made sure that you’re protected from the difficulties you had growing up, but I guess I did too much and made you feel like I held you hostage.
All I hoped for us, is to be together. I never doubted you or our future,
but I guess I was wrong.
You always told me that everything was going well and having therapy sessions were helping you to deal with the abuse, you went through. I couldn’t understand lot of actions, since I’m not an expert in that field but it was not going to hurt to put more effort into understanding what you were going through. Somehow leaving you in the hands of professionals, got me forgetting my responsibilities as your partner.
This house has become bigger, cold and quiet. I played our playlist the other day the Sinéad O’Connor – Nothing compare 2 U song, is crazy.
I broke into tears when it came to this part:
“Its been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong”.
This made me realise how much you mean to me and you complete me.
I love you deeply Annah!
I hope this finds you well.
With love, Zach.